Thursday, May 19, 2011

please please. god please safe her please. i beg you.. :( my grandma is having a hard time now. at Malaysia. a lung cancer. doctor says she cant live any longer. how? i had not exprience of losing a loves one. exclude my grandfather(yeye) last time passed away, as i'm still very young at that time. but now its different. i'm a grown up girl that knows what really happen!!!! she's in sucha pain you know. having a morphine. a lump at the neck, swelling, yellow pus. because she is old now, cannot do and treatment of the cancer already. she wont be able to tahan the high effect? of the chemo. and is having palliative care now. wtf?!
we, in singapore, being not able to go back Malaysia to see her.. cousin will always update her condition to us.. and now, she can hardly walk, but must with assistance, and she have no appetite also.

i hope holiday faster come and i can fly to her! most hope, she can live longer with no suffering.
APO! YOU MUST JIAYOU!!! WE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU!

please please. i hope none of my friends is a smokers. really! this is so so so bad (x99999999999..) seriously! is not that i want to repeat of "not to smoke" for so many time for like years, my dear. i don't wish/want to lose you! :( we are still young, can quit de. now generation is different! we not neeed to use the smoke smell to cover the shit smell. right? so.. please...

i know nobody will read my blog already.
i is just want to say it here.
i really dont know how and what to do...

ahmitofo.

tomorrow will be better :D